I am reminded again (since I haven't posted anything here in over a month) that God is faithful. He has continued to meet us day by day, while I have struggled with discouragement and being weary. I have lost heart.

It isn't that I believe Him less, or trust less what He is able to do. It is just that I am tired. In that drain, I have let things go. I have not expressed gratefulness for how He has met me. I have let my focus shift to the gaps instead of the provision. I have wallowed in what is hard rather than remembering what is firm footing. And I don't know why.

I am struggling significantly with not being able to get my bearings. I don't know which end is up. I don't know which way to face, how to make some decisions that need to be made, and how to invest my time in the months ahead.

I am not sure how to resolve some issues that surround me. And I don't like the feeling of being out of kilter.

We are down a computer, and one of the kids needs this one so I need to sign off now. I will keep at it and post again soon.